We just got this early this morning, written by our doctor-son during his nightshift in the ER...his relentless nightshifts. It is stark, terrifying in its bleakness, yet repeated in ERs and ICUs throughout the land, as he was writing it in the early post-midnight hours.
He didn’t send this to us for publication. This is a letter from a son to his father, written from a Fallujah-type foxhole. To protect his identity, please don’t use his Kossack name (searchable by oppressive, suppressive medical corps 😡), nor his location, if you know it.
I just think it’s important that we hear this. It is like a cry from an ice floe out in the howling winds of darkest Antarctica. Does anyone hear it?
Quite honestly, I no longer read these sorts of things, nor have the inclination to write about it either. [We sent him a copy of this Kossack post:
www.dailykos.com/...]
I guess the only comparison I could think of would be for a grunt in Vietnam to be shown 'Apocalypse Now', or a GI fresh off Omaha Beach watching "Saving Private Ryan".
It's like pouring alcohol in an open wound.
I have seen more than enough and have no desire to experience it through anyone else's eyes, and I've lost all desire to try and describe it to anyone who hasn't seen the elephant.
Maybe with time and distance, I'll write again, but I doubt it. I have so much anger and resentment built up, it may never subside.
It's to the point that we literally no longer care. The ones we see now are 99% unvaccinated, so we just shrug. I can count the vaccinated admissions on my fingers, and I don't think but one of them died..
The kids, obviously, we do care.
The adults? Fuck 'em.
They made their choice.
[snipped horrific personal details]
Obviously, I'm writing this in the middle of the night. I've only done one intubation tonight, so that's good. The numbers are, finally, falling. We've seen the numbers drop before though, multiple times, only to have another surge. Maybe it'll be different this time, but it's hard to get optimistic. We're all just numb.
If you know a healthcare giver, give them some love today. They are all being stressed to the breaking point. If they, as our front-line of defense against the pandemic, go down, what will we do then? The Covidiots attacking healthcare professionals in hospitals and medical facilities, and everywhere now, obviously have not thought this through. Damn them.